"It Is Finished . . ."

"It is finished." - Jesus Christ

I've always thought those were the most dramatic words ever spoken. Every time I read Jesus saying them I feel a little shiver run through me. Today I spoke them myself. Today I graduated. Of course, unlike Jesus, I am not saving the human race, nor even accomplishing anything outstanding really. And I have two more classes to polish off during the summer. But something changed for me today when I graduated.

First, I think I accepted the truth; I am now a counselor. Whatever that means, I am it! Somehow in my mind I had convinced myself that I was just a guy expanding my theological and psychological knowledge. A course here, a course there. The self-deception felt necessary sometimes - to protect myself. I'm in a program where the practicums are pass/fail; you either can do it (counseling) or you can't. I've seen the pain of those who didn't make it. After surviving three years of it, I feel like I guess I'm somewhat "legit." At least my school think so!

Secondly, now that I have graduated, I can feel the responsibility to do good with what I have learned. It is time to "get in the game," to reengage in ministry. Not only this, but I feel like a new chapter of my life is beginning and that so many things in my life need to change. I am excited about this new inner drive to serve and improve, I love change.

Thirdly, I am extremely humbled and thankful My family (my poor family!) has supported me greatly the past few years. Jobina's sacrifices alone could fill an entire book. My kids have put up with a lot. And my parents and Jobina's have been so supportive, caring, and understanding, that when I think about it I get pretty emotional. And to my friends who I've most ignored - thanks for not giving up on me. Seriously, thank you to everyone who's supported or encouraged me - I don't honestly think I could have made it without you.

Lastly, I realized that I need to recharge. My frantic pace combined with too many responsibilities and my penchant for procrastination has left me feeling "thin" and tired. Tired emotionally, physically, socially, and above all spiritually. I need to reconnect to God, my family, my friends, and even my self. I look forward to a season of refreshment.

I'm not sure what God will have for me after the summer, but I'm praying that I will be open to it. Whoever you are reading this, May God bless you today as he has me. Adieu.

May Light increase!